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[Feb. 6th, 2010|07:50 pm] |
I'm going to have to tell them soon. I know they're watching me and I don't know how I can keep up lying and hiding this from them. I know the great influx of skirts and makeup has perked my Mom's interest. I think she's just pleased I've gone back to wearing girls underwear. Little does she know that think I know she was dreading is true.
How they take it is going to be interesting. It makes me wonder if Dad will even look up. I know Mom will flip. She's actually started taking an interest in me telling me how I look ice and wanting to plan a shopping trip. I don't know if I could take all the hope she has that I'm finally normal away from her. All she wanted from me all this time was just to be a girl.
The best thing to come out of this (aside from being with a fantastic girl whom I adore) is that I actually feel like one person. I feel whole and like Alexa. I feel like I don't have to try and be everything but just being me is enough. I know it sounds strange to the rest of the world but I know at least one other person understands.
I think I might want to get something pierced soon. Don't ask what because I'm not sure. The idea that I actually own my body now and can put hole in it where ever I like seems amazing. |
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[Oct. 12th, 2009|02:11 pm] |
Halloween is coming. I can't decide if I want to do anything about it. I know of a few parties and thing but really there's only two ways to enjoy halloween as an adult.
1. pass out the candy to the kids who come to trick or treat at the house.
2. dress up in some kind of uber whore fantasy outfit and drive the dudes wild.
I don't really like kids so the first one doesn't really work for me. Kids are always sticky and that's just weird. They're kinda cute sometimes but when you encounter an unfortunate looking child in a costume it just makes how unfortunate they look worse.
I doubt I'd make a good slutty Alice in wonderland for the second option. I just don't do slutty well. I'm not built for it. I'm flat, short and have that 'one of the guys' look. That and the skirts for those costumes aren't long enough for me to wear shorts under. No one wants me to wear the short skirt let alone accidentally flash them my goodies.
So what do you other Non kid loving, non sexy people do for Halloween? Horror movies aren't really an option so yeah. Let me know some things to do. |
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